Following back surgery, my recovery was going pretty good until I came down with some infections in my incisions. The doctor quickly put me on antibiotics that cleared up one of the infections but my back just wouldn’t heal up for some reason. So, after seeing a specialist, I’m on a new antibiotic that has made short work of whatever was in that incision. It’s stopped draining and looks a ton better!
But… I have to keep taking the antibiotic for at least a couple more weeks…and maybe even a month. And it’s such high strength that it makes me feel anywhere from lousy to horrible. Now, I’m incredibly grateful for the healing this drug brought but I’m also incredibly frustrated that I have to endure the discomfort for weeks after I feel like I’m healed.
And isn’t that how we approach Jesus?
We get caught in the consequences of some poor decision or blatant sin and we desperately look for help wherever it can be found. We’re hurting and we need answers. So we go to church for a few weeks, we ask for special prayers, we search the Bible for answers and we even spend time praying as we lie in bed at night. And then, as our situation begins to right itself, we get all excited that life is turning back to normal and we happily slide back into the comfortable spiritual life we had before.
It’s not that we don’t want to feel as close to God as we did when we everything seemed dark… It’s just that we don’t have time for all that stuff all the time. It’s inconvenient and uncomfortable.
So many of us never form a real relationship with God because our entire experience with Him is series of “rescue me” moments. We treat Him as a cosmic antibiotic for the ailments and infections we face and, once we feel healed, we’re back to normal.
Relationships are built after the crisis moment, after the pain has subsided, after the darkness has been vanquished. Jesus loves you and longs to help in your suffering but He died to be with you in your health. He died to have a relationship with you after the dust settles.
It may be inconvenient in your schedule and uncomfortable with your current priorities but it’s the only way to stay healthy. It’s the only way to break the cycle of sin and poor decisions that routinely brings you back to desperation.