As we kick off a brand new year, I have a confession to make…
I don’t have a clue what I’m doing.
A year ago, we launched Soma and I’ve been “winging it” ever since. Here’s a quick recap…
- We transitioned a student worship environment into an environment for people of all ages.
- We’ve assembled an incredible group of worship leaders.
- We’ve pulled together a great tech / setup crew.
- We’ve just finished our first year well above every expectation we had at launch.
- We’ve been huddling and discipling some exciting emerging leaders.
- We’ve begun taking steps toward developing missional communities as an outward experession of our body.
As I look back over the past year, there have been definite ups and downs, but at the end of the day, God has done some amazing things right before my eyes. And then I consider how I had major back surgery and was largely sidelined for 2-3 months and I’m even more amazed at what God has accomplished in this place!
But the more amazed I become, the more inadequate I feel. I look back and I don’t know how we got where we are because we’re not that good. Now, we had strategies and goals and a clear process to work through, but the current reality is so much better than our plans and abilities should have allowed.
In all honesty, 18 months ago, when we were dreaming and planning, I almost didn’t take the plunge. Everything was going just fine at the time… Our student worship was as good as ever… My schedule was as full as ever… The vision was overwhelming… The task was uncomfortable… And I didn’t have a clue about how we would really get from Point A to Point B.
There came a day when I had to decide what my 2012 was going to look like. Was it going to be a mere repeat of 2011? Or was it going to be a year of praying, trusting, trying, failing, learning and growing?
More often than not, I feel like I just don’t have a clue what I’m doing. But I have absolute confidence that God does. He knows where I’ve been, He knows where I am and He knows where I’m going. He has rescued me time after time and He has called me toward a vision of what could be…if I’ll just take the plunge.
I KNOW 2013 is going to be a great year. It’s the year my family enters into foster care to love children who are living in a shattered world. It’s the year Soma takes a leap and experiences the next phase of our vision. It’s another year of leaping into the grace and momentum of the Kingdom of God.
What’s your 2013 going to look like? I’d be willing to bet you often feel like I do, like you don’t have a clue what you’re doing. And I’d be willing to bet that that fear and doubt have paralyzed you more than once. Jesus said, “I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”
Let 2013 be the year that you experience life to the full!